Optimism is my normal state of mind. I’m one of those people that always see’s the glass as half full and am confident everything will turn out fine.
But that optimistic outlook is missing lately. There’s been too much loss the last couple of years and I’m tired of it.
It started with my mother’s unexpected passing in 2012. That was devastating to me and although I can now accept it, I miss her terribly.
It’s hard without the one person who always was there for me no matter what I said, did or looked like.
Since then there have been many more losses, large and small:
1. A younger first cousin died from a sudden cardiac arrest
2. A close aunt died from Ovarian Cancer
3. My sister’s marriage is ending. My heart breaks for her and we grieve the broken relationship with a brother-in-law of 25 years.
4. My son won’t speak to me.
5. My husband lost his father and I lost a father-in-law; we have no more parents.
When my sister’s cat had to be euthanized this week, it felt like the last straw. I can only imagine how she feels!
So for the rest of years, I hope to only have happy events in the family. There are some already planned that I look forward to including a couple of weddings.
And maybe my son will call me. One can always hope.
It sounds like it’s not too far off to that sunny side of the street. How do you recover from a series of hard knocks?