Optimism is my normal state of mind. I’m one of those people that always see’s the glass as half full and am confident everything will turn out fine.
But that optimistic outlook is missing lately. There’s been too much loss the last couple of years and I’m tired of it.
It started with my mother’s unexpected passing in 2012. That was devastating to me and although I can now accept it, I miss her terribly.
It’s hard without the one person who always was there for me no matter what I said, did or looked like.
Since then there have been many more losses, large and small:
1. A younger first cousin died from a sudden cardiac arrest
2. A close aunt died from Ovarian Cancer
3. My sister’s marriage is ending. My heart breaks for her and we grieve the broken relationship with a brother-in-law of 25 years.
4. My son won’t speak to me.
5. My husband lost his father and I lost a father-in-law; we have no more parents.
When my sister’s cat had to be euthanized this week, it felt like the last straw. I can only imagine how she feels!
So for the rest of years, I hope to only have happy events in the family. There are some already planned that I look forward to including a couple of weddings.
And maybe my son will call me. One can always hope.
It sounds like it’s not too far off to that sunny side of the street. How do you recover from a series of hard knocks?
Kitty says
It sure sounds like you are having more than your fair share.
Erin says
I’m sorry for losses. You are in my thoughts & heart during these tough times.
Kay Lynn says
Thank you Erin! Will I see you in Savannah?
Deborah says
Sending you some big Cyber Hugs!
Kay Lynn says
Deborah, you don’t know how much that means to me. Thank you for your kind words!
Khaleef @ Fat Guy, Skinny Wallet says
I am so sorry to hear about you and your family dealing with so much loss over the last few years. We will definitely be praying for you.
Kay Lynn says
Khaleef, thank you so much. Give your lovely bride a hug from me. The best part of blogging is the wonderful people you meet.
Denise @ Do you have that in my size??? says
Why do these sort of things always come in one huge wave? I’m sorry to hear about your sister’s separation – that is so tough on the entire family – and your son’s silence, too. Hopefully once you’re home and back into your routine it will be easier to cope.
Kay Lynn says
Denise, I don’t know. I do know that an unfortunate side effect of getting older is that so is everyone you love. I am looking for some respite from bad news!